i have made a new livejournal, i dont know a lot of people im friends with on this one anymore

not that that matters.. add my new one if youd like. i dont know, im just in the mood for a change

britt_anyann

oh my fuckk
my brothers so rude when his friends are over it drives me crazy
brody i mean, he just bardges into my room and is like "my friends want to see how small your room is compared to mine" im like "ok can knock first next time" and hes like "uh no thanks"
my spoiled brother needs a serious smack

anyway, things have been going good. i have to work until 12 tonight and then i have an exam tomorrow morning which sucks but after tomorrow i just have my geography exam and then a whole week off

i havent laughed in awhile as much as i did tonight.
me and alicia went to the gym after school and then we went out for supper with alycia

just so many funny things happened. i laugh at the weirdest things forever, like me and alycia put an olive on aleesh's phone when she went to the bathroom and for some reason i think thats the funniest thing in the whole world
me and alea laughed for at least 10 minutes about it.
and on the way home me and alicia were pretending to talk with these old accents like the ones they have in the old movies
even thinking about it in my head is making me laugh.

i talk to michael so much lately except its good. he loves final fantasy and everytime i think about that it makes me laugh because it reminds me of the weird anime kids at my school who spend all lunch period in the computer lab playing computer games.
haha ! i guess im kind of hypocritical because when michael likes final fantasy i think its cute in a geeky way, when boys at my school do that kind of stuff theyre just really gay

today was a day that was good
i finally remembered to give grace the cd i made her.

stephanie and i stayed outlate parked in the variety store lot eating icecream and talking

i got done marilyn today, overall i think its an alright job. once i take it home ill post pictures
shes huge ! 5'5" or around there.
 my mom payed for all the mail i send today which was nice.

i think i might be going to stay with michael in illinois during march break. i hope so so so very much,

i dont even want to be up yet
but my dad was like jumping on my bed and laying on me crushing me because he wanted me to wake up before he left for work
but then my sister beat him up for me (haha)
but i still cant get back to sleep

i spent friday with alicia and tom and his friends. one was named josh i think
he was very good looking
i bet my brothers going to come out of his room really pissed any minute now because i have rap music blaring and hes sleeping
im going to go eat breakfast

schools stressing me out so much i cant even think about it without feeling sick
i also had this dream about this boy who goes to my school and it wasnt the kind of dreams i usually have
and now i cant stop thinking about him its a very odd thing because i dont think weve ever had a conversation in my life and i didnt think i thought he was attractive
but by judging by what happened in my dream my subconscious apparently disagrees.

im gross

im tired and its only 12
i always cry from laughing when im with tory.

for the last couple hours all we did was play mariokart (i obviously one) and watch season 3 of the oc

death cab and the oc have taken over my life !

soon im going to head over to aniks and then me her and kristen are going to some party and they want to go to  a rave after but im not too into being around 500 kids running around on e

i feel like im finally becoming myself again
the self that used to laugh loud and call and write michael a lot and make cds and cards and things for people just to see them smile and know all the lyrics to every rap song !
and maybe that doesnt seem appealing to some people, but thats the actual me

today i think was good.
i hung out with alicia last night, i like when we hang out just us because shes the only person who gets me.
i think everybody has one person like that, who really actually understand why we do the things we do, and why we are the way we are.
im glad i found my person when i was in gr3

today we went tanning and it was kind of a weird experience except really neat. its like a spaceship and i was in the stand up one so i kind of just danced around to the music
i just got back from a long run

okay that was a lie it wasnt exactly long. im so out of shape ! i only could run 2 k without feeling seriously physically sick

my weekends been okay, friday night i went shopping with my mother,
because i have no friends anymore, seriously. all they do is do school work or spend time with their boyfriends.
i kind of like being alone though, and just painting or listening to music
and sitting in my room with only one lamp on so that everything is a weird orange colour
i would like a friend who likes to smoke weed and play sudoku but nobody just goes with the flow anymore, because well, refere to the end of the second last sentence up. 

last night i went to buffalo for supper with my family.  i think its so rediculous people actually pay $1000 for supper. it was gorgeous though, and the waiter by a table by mine was very very attractive.  and i have nothing to explain about since dad just gave me $120 for going out tonight. 
my family always has money and nice things and sometimes it makes me feel very guitly.

tonight im sleeping at stephs, im glad.

i wish i was one of those people who just liked to party and go out always and didnt think about life and why were here

fuck you honestly

tonight i had a good talk with dan and chanels mom about university.  
she made me feel a lot better and said a lot of things my mothers said to me but in a different way
hearing it from another mother other then your own actually makes things seem a lot clearer.

I cant stop eating clemintines,

things are actually alright right now. ive decided instead of going to university next year i think im going to move in with my dad and stay back an extra year. ive never lived with my dad, or in hamilton and i know this will be my only chance too. im really too anxious to go to university right now honestly. my brother will be in gr11 then and ill be in gr12 again and i think itll just be okay. although im not sure... i dont want it to just be like centennial - or worse.

im a little behind in school. tonight me and kyle were suppose to go out but his science trip went longer then he expected. my moms hovering me and its making me really uncomfortable so im going to go..