and it reads just like the bible

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-29T21:03:00

2007-01-30T01:52:49Z

i have made a new livejournal, i dont know a lot of people im friends with on this one anymore

not that that matters.. add my new one if youd like. i dont know, im just in the mood for a change

britt_anyann

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-28T18:44:00

2007-01-28T23:35:07Z

oh my fuckk
my brothers so rude when his friends are over it drives me crazy
brody i mean, he just bardges into my room and is like "my friends want to see how small your room is compared to mine" im like "ok can knock first next time" and hes like "uh no thanks"
my spoiled brother needs a serious smack

anyway, things have been going good. i have to work until 12 tonight and then i have an exam tomorrow morning which sucks but after tomorrow i just have my geography exam and then a whole week off

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-23T18:53:00

2007-01-23T23:48:42Z

i havent laughed in awhile as much as i did tonight.
me and alicia went to the gym after school and then we went out for supper with alycia

just so many funny things happened. i laugh at the weirdest things forever, like me and alycia put an olive on aleesh's phone when she went to the bathroom and for some reason i think thats the funniest thing in the whole world
me and alea laughed for at least 10 minutes about it.
and on the way home me and alicia were pretending to talk with these old accents like the ones they have in the old movies
even thinking about it in my head is making me laugh.

i talk to michael so much lately except its good. he loves final fantasy and everytime i think about that it makes me laugh because it reminds me of the weird anime kids at my school who spend all lunch period in the computer lab playing computer games.
haha ! i guess im kind of hypocritical because when michael likes final fantasy i think its cute in a geeky way, when boys at my school do that kind of stuff theyre just really gay

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-20T00:10:00

2007-01-20T05:10:43Z

today was a day that was good
i finally remembered to give grace the cd i made her.

stephanie and i stayed outlate parked in the variety store lot eating icecream and talking

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-18T19:24:00

2007-01-19T00:27:09Z

i got done marilyn today, overall i think its an alright job. once i take it home ill post pictures
shes huge ! 5'5" or around there.
my mom payed for all the mail i send today which was nice.

i think i might be going to stay with michael in illinois during march break. i hope so so so very much,

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-14T11:40:00

2007-01-14T16:47:08Z

i dont even want to be up yet
but my dad was like jumping on my bed and laying on me crushing me because he wanted me to wake up before he left for work
but then my sister beat him up for me (haha)
but i still cant get back to sleep

i spent friday with alicia and tom and his friends. one was named josh i think
he was very good looking
i bet my brothers going to come out of his room really pissed any minute now because i have rap music blaring and hes sleeping
im going to go eat breakfast

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-10T19:46:00

2007-01-11T00:49:52Z

schools stressing me out so much i cant even think about it without feeling sick
i also had this dream about this boy who goes to my school and it wasnt the kind of dreams i usually have
and now i cant stop thinking about him its a very odd thing because i dont think weve ever had a conversation in my life and i didnt think i thought he was attractive
but by judging by what happened in my dream my subconscious apparently disagrees.

im gross

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-08T15:53:00

2007-01-08T21:04:30Z

today was not very good, im getting extremely anxious about university and things, i cant even sleep.
i dont know if thats why or what, but everyones making me so seriously pissed, even kristen which is different.

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-02T23:32:00

2007-01-03T04:32:46Z

im tired and its only 12
i always cry from laughing when im with tory.

for the last couple hours all we did was play mariokart (i obviously one) and watch season 3 of the oc

seasonpoem @ 2007-01-02T19:18:00

2007-01-03T00:35:42Z

the past couple days have been so good,
new years was funny except kind of awkward and who has parties in a barn,

me and anik went to some ghetto party where i met this boy named Cam who said he goes to my school, hes really cute! i talked to a lot of people about a lot of stuff that i dont remember very well

i woke up to alicia throwing m&ms at me at 10 this morning, and then her and alycia went skating but i didnt want to so i came home and showered and everything
and then alicia picked me up again and we went and saw the persuit of happiness, it was very sad.
tory and allyson broke up and i feel so so bad, hes on his way here now
i hope he likes messy rooms because im definetly not cleaning it for him

seasonpoem @ 2006-12-31T15:24:00

2006-12-31T20:52:07Z

death cab and the oc have taken over my life !

soon im going to head over to aniks and then me her and kristen are going to some party and they want to go to a rave after but im not too into being around 500 kids running around on e

i feel like im finally becoming myself again
the self that used to laugh loud and call and write michael a lot and make cds and cards and things for people just to see them smile and know all the lyrics to every rap song !
and maybe that doesnt seem appealing to some people, but thats the actual me

seasonpoem @ 2006-12-29T00:08:00

2006-12-29T05:57:26Z

today i think was good.
i hung out with alicia last night, i like when we hang out just us because shes the only person who gets me.
i think everybody has one person like that, who really actually understand why we do the things we do, and why we are the way we are.
im glad i found my person when i was in gr3

today we went tanning and it was kind of a weird experience except really neat. its like a spaceship and i was in the stand up one so i kind of just danced around to the music
i just got back from a long run

okay that was a lie it wasnt exactly long. im so out of shape ! i only could run 2 k without feeling seriously physically sick

seasonpoem @ 2006-12-19T21:10:00

2006-12-20T02:10:26Z

sunday i did end up having a good time. stephs hat is my favourite im so glad she forgot it at my house.

i really really like gym class heroes, they played really neat and different music, everyone else that played was just alright.

i am also reading a book called Is there Life After Death
it isnt what youd think it would be. actually it is very scary to think about and actually realize.
it basically explains scientific proof from genius physisists threw the experimentation of atoms that there is very much indeed parallel universises.
on a down scale basically what they did was they threw i forget what it is, the things one step smaller then atoms, at this wall with two side by side slits in a box at light speed to see which slit it would go threw. but instead of picking one our the other slit it somehow went threw both at the same time without dividing. so basically it went into two places at once. putting that onto a bigger scale it is thought that each dicision we made, like in the experiment, lets us be in two places at once, and by this we are actually splitting into different parallel universes. so we do not actually decide "do i want peanutbutter or just butter on my toast" the concious one of us that we are now, like the concious one of me who is writing puts the peanut butter on the toast, where as in a parallel universe i put butter on the toast.
it is very hard to accept this concept but the book really is so intruiging and the facts and experiments are very percise, although hard to digest if you see what im saying.
it also talks about things such as the decision of atoms, for ex. how do they decide that they want to be a chair, or a glass, etc. it is thought that it is not really the atoms decision at all it is actually our minds that decide this. so if we want to see a chair it will be a chair, the observer makes the atoms come together into the objects. now i am not saying i can look outside and think really hard "i want a bunch of atoms to form into a huge massive flower" and it will exsist, but it is our brains that create the world around us, which is completely realistic to think actually since the majority of our brains we do not have control over and we do not know exactly what the parts are used for. the thing i have the most hard time trying to think about when it comes to this theory is that it is said that the atoms do not come together unless they have a observer right, so that means all the rest of the times the atoms are just speeding around, and in waves right, so that means things im not viewing right now arent actually happening. so my brother upstairs sleeping isnt actually sleeping because it doesnt exsist do you see what im saying? its not that this is a loophole it is just very frightening to think everything is a figure of imagination. i mean right now behind me is there nothing? if i turn around i will see a big window but that is my brain knowing the window will be there.

i think i am actually going insane.. but insane people do not know they are insane but i actually know i am so does that make me less crazy? you see what im saying here?

seasonpoem @ 2006-12-17T13:08:00

2006-12-17T18:27:18Z

my weekends been okay, friday night i went shopping with my mother,
because i have no friends anymore, seriously. all they do is do school work or spend time with their boyfriends.
i kind of like being alone though, and just painting or listening to music
and sitting in my room with only one lamp on so that everything is a weird orange colour
i would like a friend who likes to smoke weed and play sudoku but nobody just goes with the flow anymore, because well, refere to the end of the second last sentence up.

last night i went to buffalo for supper with my family. i think its so rediculous people actually pay $1000 for supper. it was gorgeous though, and the waiter by a table by mine was very very attractive. and i have nothing to explain about since dad just gave me $120 for going out tonight.
my family always has money and nice things and sometimes it makes me feel very guitly.

tonight im sleeping at stephs, im glad.

seasonpoem @ 2006-12-11T17:36:00

2006-12-11T23:36:24Z

i wish i was one of those people who just liked to party and go out always and didnt think about life and why were here

fuck you honestly

seasonpoem @ 2006-12-07T18:25:00

2006-12-08T00:25:29Z

tonight i had a good talk with dan and chanels mom about university.
she made me feel a lot better and said a lot of things my mothers said to me but in a different way
hearing it from another mother other then your own actually makes things seem a lot clearer.

seasonpoem @ 2006-12-04T14:16:00

2006-12-04T20:16:31Z

the weekend was okay,
me and kyle went to some shitty show saturday ,
but it was good seeing shawna and misty and dani and bailey even if only for a second, just alright people i dont usually get to see.
then we went with gary to starbucks and the car was really cold but i layed under a really warm blanket in the back.

school is so boring. the only even close to cool thing about today was how last period the library smelt like puke so me and laura and carissa and matt bohun told puke stories. they all were really gross, except still really funny.
whats even happening to my teenage years?

the sun is finally out today and its so nice even though its too cold.
i just want to lay in the sun forever
i want to go for a walk but, why does nobody i know live in fonthill too?

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-27T18:18:00

2006-11-28T00:18:17Z

I cant stop eating clemintines,

things are actually alright right now. ive decided instead of going to university next year i think im going to move in with my dad and stay back an extra year. ive never lived with my dad, or in hamilton and i know this will be my only chance too. im really too anxious to go to university right now honestly. my brother will be in gr11 then and ill be in gr12 again and i think itll just be okay. although im not sure... i dont want it to just be like centennial - or worse.

im a little behind in school. tonight me and kyle were suppose to go out but his science trip went longer then he expected. my moms hovering me and its making me really uncomfortable so im going to go..

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-23T17:30:00

2006-11-23T23:30:07Z

things are seriously so weird right now..
im not sure how to even explain because its nothing specific. well actually, its mainly just everything
tonight is the first day in awhile i havent had work.
i worked with daniella and mike last night, mikes pretty funny and goes to dame. daniellas very pretty and she goes to eden. she is my favourite from work. im going to make her a cd this weekend if i remember ! im falling behind in school and its making me really stressed
but today i almost finished my whole painting, its on plastic surgery mrs tyson really is liking it and really thats all that matters because i need 80s.
alicia just called but i didnt feel like getting up to get the phone and that was stupid/lazy of me.

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-21T15:11:00

2006-11-21T21:11:25Z

today kyle asked me to prom.

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-14T21:33:00

2006-11-15T03:33:41Z

i love listening to old boysnightout because it reminds me of this one christmas break when charity came down for so long and me and her and jessica spent every second together. when we were a bit younger and a bit funner and smoked a bit more and were still best friends.
with jessicas cheetah room, and her bed was the smallest most uncomfortable thing ever, and we somehow always had somewhere to go and someone to meet up with
sometimes i hear her talk in class and it makes me miss her so much
but sometimes i hear her talk and it just makes me so mad.

it is funny to me that you never stop loving your first real friends.
its just that adolecense ruins us all.

today is my grandma's birthday. and she is what im thankful for today.
im finding it increasingly odd that i still care a lot about dan and its so silly because he doesnt about me and we dont even hang out or barely talk now ever. i wish that this was different, a lot. i think im going to just start ignoring this again, the more i think about it the more i dont get why he doesnt want to spend time with me.

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-13T17:03:00

2006-11-13T23:03:36Z

aside from just falling up the stairs on the way to my room one minute ago, i had an excellent time today.
i did nothing at all,
i did not go to school, and i did not do homework and i did not put on makeup, but i did straighten my hair and get dressed for no real reason in particular. i also sat on the couch and ate a milkshake. because my parents werent home and im not allowed to do that when they are home. haha i am so badass.

my favourite part of today was half an hour ago when the school called to say that i had skipped school. and its a recording right,
so i pick up the phone and it says (sound this out outloud, seriously) "your son/daughter brittanty moe - faaaaught " it made me laugh the loudest laugh. and then i repeated it for my mom and brother on speaker phone and we all laughed for 10 minutes probably. no joke !

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-11T19:55:00

2006-11-12T01:55:14Z

this weekend was kind of cool. but i got very panicy about every single thing.
i took the bus to toronto friday and slept at kristys and then saturday walked over to ocad.
this man give us a huge lecture about portfolios and it made me a bit nervous because he wouldnt give anyone a straight answer
the schools really neat, inside.
i learned this thing, it is called encaustic painting, its really just an excuse to make a big mess, but it is fun and if youre good at it it looks really really nice.
but im not good at it....
i do wish you could touch texture over the computer though.

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-08T18:44:00

2006-11-09T00:44:18Z

i am feeling so much better. i still have a sore throat but i just feel okay, you know?
today i actually washed my hair and im listening to sufjan stevens and im actually going to do my homework
i cant explain how thankful i am to have became friends with aaron. its so good to find somebody with the exact exact same sense of humour and perseption as me. we just get along so good. sometimes you meet people at the oddest times.. i mean ive known him for almost 4 years and we just never talked. but i am very thankful to have met him now still, i think i will remember him for along time and he always just seemed really quiet and standoffish, but really hes so funny and very smart, in a people kind of way, he is actually one of the most special people ive ever known. and thats the only way i can really explain him.

today ive been thinking, i think when women have no hair it is just impowering
i mean not everyone, especially not everyone,
but sometimes it is just so idont know.. impowering.
it is like when you see children with cancer and it just makes you so sick to your stomache with grief,
but their hair is gone and they really just look like angels.
and you realize that is only happening because they are just too good for this earth,
every single one of them.

seasonpoem @ 2006-11-07T19:42:00

2006-11-08T01:42:46Z

i am still very sick,
if not sicker then before. i cannot talk, and i have a headache and earache and fever and nothings going right.

"Its like when youre excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. And other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. And all you want is to always feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means you’re happy, too"